Syukur Alhamulillah, I'm blessed with health and life to live yet another day with my loved ones.
So many things have happened since I last wrote in here. So many things have been running in my head. I got myself and the people around me so confused so many times. And now, it feels like I'm neither here nor there. I wasn't satisfied with myself, but I'm trying to gain my confidence back again.
I'm so afraid of losing what I've held on to for so long, what I believed in for so long. This is the truth. Trying to change this will take some time but InsyaAllah He will give us the strength to get through this challenging phase. InsyaAllah He will brighten our hearts and minds to make the best decision for each other, and personally for ourselves to get closer to Him.
May He grant us patience and strength.
Amin